Day 4, Diligence

Not giving up paid off. Finally weight loss!!!!  I stuck to my guns yesterday added a little exercise when I felt like giving in and I lost weight.

Up until yesterday I was trying to get through my day by eating fruits and nuts throughout the day and a nice healthy meal for dinner all without coffee. Yesterday I ate 2 slices of bacon for breakfast, drank my coffee just the way I like it, some egg salad for lunch, snacked on some homemade beef jerky, and had roasted chicken and green beans for dinner. I also drank 80 oz. of water. I felt satisfied all day and all it paid off. Hopefully today is another great day :)


This mornings weigh in 241.9 :)

I think I can

I could get discouraged, quit trying, and quit writing, but what good would that do??? None! So I pulled myself up and out. Ate some breakfast, cleaned the house, danced with my daughter and took the dog for a walk. Now I am getting ready to have some lunch. I won't let this gain get the best of me. Time to move onward and ramp it up a bit!

Day 3, Not going so well

I would hope that maybe I would at least be maintaining my weight. Well not so! I am gaining weight at a rather unreasonable rate. My body is terribly pissed at what I am doing to it. In two days I have gained 4 pounds which is not at all what I planned. It is so easy to admit defeat, throw your hands up in the air and surrender. This is a true battle. It is hard, tiresome, and time consuming. I have to find something that works or I may just give up completely. Not feeling much in the way of motivation today.

I am planning some healthy meals. I am going to go grocery shopping and see if I can get motivated again. This is extremely hard and I hope to find a way to make it work for me soon. My 100 days will be up and I will be lucky to lose anything.

This mornings weigh in 247.

Day 2, Weight gain

I don't even want to talk about yesterday. That darn coffee was like a drug. Knowing I couldn't have it made it worse until suddenly without any planning I was eating everything. I had a bowl of cereal, pierogies, pasta salad, tacos, toast, kinky dew, and to top it all off... I drank that cup of coffee, and hated it. Coffee is how I control my hunger. I drink coffee, I don't eat. When I don't drink coffee I eat everything I can fit in my mouth. Remember that camping stuff, well I dug through it to find my splenda.

Needless to say, day one was not successful in weight loss or eating correctly. I actually gained weight and feel terrible for it today. I left the cream out yesterday and had to throw it away. There is no cream in the house at all. Maybe with the temptation gone today will be easier. I also won't be home with my little one watching the rain, so I think today will go much better for me.

Here we go.... Day two.

This mornings weigh in - 244.9

I think it is the rain

Going without coffee this morning has been ridiculously hard!!!!  I blame the rain. Actually all I want to do is eat whatever my three year old is eating, drink coffee with lots of cream and cuddle on the couch with my three year old. Instead I will write about how I would love to be doing all those things. Gather up some resolve, go looking in the cupboard for some flavorful herbal tea, eat another handful of nuts and blame the rain for me wanting coffee today.

Day One, Morning Coffee

Today is it. I have procrastinated long enough, today I start my journey to lose 100 lbs in 100 days. I am going to try everything I can to succeed and hopefully along the way I will discover new truths about myself, food, weight loss and exercise.

Morning coffee is a ritual for me. I open two packets of splenda, add my coffee, and then I add a little heavy cream. I hold my coffee cup and just take in the warmth, the smell, the comfort of coffee. It eases my stress before my stress even begins. It centers me, calms me, revitalizes me. Without that cup of sweet goodness I don't know how to start my day.

I have been to see a dietitian and I know that leaving out the sweet goodness of the heavy cream saves me thousands of calories a week, but can I do it is the question. I have resolved for this 100 days to take it easy on the dairy products I consume and that much cream is not a good things. I also am trying real hard to eat "real" food instead of processed garbage. Splenda is just that processed garbage I don't need. Since I am then left with just black coffee or some coffee with maple syrup or honey in it I am kinda left with out the satisfaction. The cream is really my vice. I love the coffee with maple syrup or honey... I just need my splash of cream. I almost folded this morning and went ahead and had my sweet cup of coffee, but the splenda is packed away in the camping stuff and I am not the desperate... yet. So cheers to a morning without coffee, may my water hold my off until I come home with some herbal tea to start the morning.

This mornings weigh in 243.4 (after a weekend of camping)

Starting Anew

December 2007 - 270 pounds

In the past I have tried and failed, tried and failed, and tried again. Losing weight was just something I have never been able to do. I topped the scales at 270 pounds, I worked hard and got myself down to 245 pounds and there I am. Stuck, unable to find anything to bring the number on the scales down. I look at myself and I think I am smaller than I really am, then I see pictures of how I really look. I almost don't recognize myself sometimes in pictures. I don't have any full length mirrors in my house. I always see myself from the shoulders up. I like myself from the shoulders up it is the rest of me that is in serious trouble.

August 31, 2012 - 243 pounds

I used to enjoy amusement parks, this summer I couldn't ride a roller coaster because the seat belt would fit around me. I was mortified. I plan on going to Disney World in a year the last thing I want is to be embarrassed because I don't fit on anything. I also would like to marry my boyfriend and be a beautiful bride at this point I know I would get wedding pictures back and cry because I am so big.

Today I start anew. I know it sounds drastic but today I resolve to lose 100 pounds in 100 days. I will begin 2013 healthy, happy and full of energy.... and the journey begins.